the love i want ; What should I do just to make you feel at home? To keep me from being left all alone.
I want you to sing me a sweet lullaby. I want you to hold my hand..

These are the times Ive longed for you. I asked if you feel the same way too but you held me up, I missed your sweet hello..


It's nice that you're around.. ^.^ miss you..
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the love i want ; My first real job started yesterday. I cannot believe it at first that I have a real job (wee!! Madaya ako, kasi effortless ang pag-apply ko.. Konting kausap kay Tito Raffy then he talked to his friend na VP ng Jollibee.. Kaya ako nakapasok.. Thanks Tito Paul!! ^.^) So, I have a contract for 6 months and one month trainee ako.. P45 per hour, minimum of 4 hours and maximum of 8 hours a day.. Not bad for a part-time job.. Haha!! This is not my dream job ok?! I just want to experience if what is it like to have a REAL job.. anw.. Yes, it was exciting and fun but I didn’t like the eeekie uniform.. haha!! Stripes?! Are you kidding me?! Haay, I have to memorize what the food codes are within a week, kaya yan!! ;)

Today was my second day, nilagay na ako sa cashier.. Oh no!! ang bagal kong kumilos.. Dapat pala one and a half minute per customer.. I was so exhausted and sad, I felt I wanted to cry and quit.. Ganyan talaga sa umpisa sabi ni Ma’am Leila.. Sanayan na lang.. Carolyn was surprised when I told her this and wished me good luck.. Haay, sana lang talaga makaya ko toh.. ='S
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the love i want ; Alam kong sawa ka na sa akin.. halata naman kung papano mo ako pakitunguhan.. salamat na lang sa magandang pagsasamahan at alaalang ibinahagi mo sa akin, mukhang gusto mo na ngang magpaalam.. Bakit?! Dahil ba sa wala na akong halaga ngayon sayo?? Pasensya na, naging tanga nnaman ako.. Hindi ko malaman kung ako ba’y nagsisisi at nanghihinayang sa lahat ng ginawa ko.. Tanging pangako mo lang ang hinihintay ko, hanggang ngayon hindi mo pa rin maitupad.. Tagal na nun ha!! 3 buwan na an nakalipas.. Plano mo pa bang tuparin un?! Haha!! I guess not.. Ang hirap talaga pag umaasa ka sa wala.. Sige, kung gusto mo na ngang lumayo.. Fine.. Ako rin lalayo na sayo.. Nakakahinayang pero dapat.. Ayoko ng naghahabol ulit..
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the love i want ; Resolution for the Year 2008

In the back of our minds we all hope that the coming year will be better than the one we leave behind. Truth is, in most cases we are the masters of our destiny. The other telling truth is that in most cases - we fail dismally when it comes to New Year's Resolutions. (Well, this time I’ll try to make it happen)

It’s the day after Christmas, and the euphoria is going to wear off soon. In a few days, it’s time to get back to school -studying, nose bleed exams, etc etc. It’s also a perfect time to set some new year’s resolution. I try to keep my New Year’s resolution to ten items and then, make my goal to at least complete the first five. In that way, I am not totally disappointed in myself by the end of the year. Accomplishing three out of the ten makes me feel good. ;)

My New Year’s Resolution:

10. Stop with alcoholic drinks
Waha!! never will I forget kung anong nangyari sa akin nung debut ni roxanne.. huhuhu!! ='S


9. Become more organized
I’m always the “last-minute-job”. Haha!! Sometimes I forgot what I'm supposed to do or what my schedules are for tomorrow. (I don't like using planners, sticky-notes will do.. ;D )

8. Be more driven
Stop the “manyana habit”. (sobrang tamad ko kasi.. hehehe.. :P)

7. More Time at home
Even on weekends, I hang-out with my friends at the mall or so..

6. Stop having fights
Don’t get me wrong but I am not a war freak ok?!


5. Earning for myself/ Find a job
I’m tired of being called “elite”, “richie rich” or so.. This time I want to be independent.

4. Learn to shut up
Haha!! Being voluble can lead you into trouble.. So might as well keep my mouth shut and keep my complains/problems to myself..

3. Save more, spend less
My goodness, everything that I saved this year were all gone.. haha!! Can you believe it?? This time, I will save something for myself and for my future.. ;)

2. Stop being a drama queen
Lagi akong nadadala sa aking mga emotions.. haay.. ='(

1. Learn to say NO
Ok, so this is personal.. Even if they’re your friends, you have to set some boundaries when asking some favors..

and now, I want to express my resentment and leave it here so I can start the year with no rancor.. (WALA AKONG PINAPATAMAAN ok?!)

I hate for the fact that people leave me behind whenever I have problems.. There are some of them that I ran into to seek for their comfort but instead of giving their console, they keep on bragging with their own topics/discussion not minding how horrible I was.. grr!! Recently with a friend.. Super unfair siya, haay.. Never mind about it.. Basta sobrang unfair niya talaga!! >=’S This time, I am going to up-front and care less if he/she gets mad.. Haha!! Besides, he/she doesn’t care what I might feel, well so do I..
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the love i want ; This was sent by my cousin.. Nakakatawa kasi pati pagdrawing ng baboy, malalaman ang personality mo.. hahaha!!




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the love i want ; People can be so insensitive. Knowing that I have this huge problem because of the lost of my digicam.. Yes, it was stolen when my friend and I went to greenhills. It’s not that I’m feeling bad because it was stolen but the fear of what my parents would say. They know that I’m careful with my things. I got pissed off with my friends.. They are so selfish and yesterday I can’t help it but to cry. I thought that was the end of my “sama ng loob” even if I went to ATC & Southmall this afternoon the feeling still remain. I thought about it. How could they!! Because of what they did, I lose the perspective of what a friend means. You thought I’m ok, I’M NOT!! >=’S

sobra akong naiinis sa kanilang pgka-self centered and insensitive! Knowing na I have a problem, pinapabayaan lang ako but when it comes to theirs kapag hindi mo tinulungan sila pa ang nagagalit at nagtatampo sayo.

"Do unto others as you would have others do unto you”

Ewan ko na.. =’S lahat ng bagay nawalan na ako ng gana, dami pa naman events ngayong December (our field trip, Theena, Lea & roxanne's debut, celebration, & our dec. 22 road trip..)
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the love i want ; 1st week of classes.. Super fun, most of our classes, wala pang mga prof.. My highlights for the whole week..

Monday
• I was elected treasurer in our class.. (eww!! Ayokong mghandle ng funds ng class.. huhu!!)
• Went to SM and karaoke hanggang sawa.. Courtesy of Roxanne.. haha!! Thanks girl.. ;)

Tuesday
• Feeling stupid, I cried.. huhuhu!!
• Had only 1 class that is, calculus 1.. yehey!! Same prof ulit.. ^.^
• Went to robinson’s w/ friends (sawa na kasi kami sa sm), kain sa ice berg.. comfort food.. yummy!! Then karaoke sa gbox.. (happy happy na ulit ako.. aww.. thank you girls!! Love yah much, mwahhz!!)
• Yes!! I’m going to have a new phone.. wee!! Haven’t decided what cellphone pero maghahanap na muna ako.. hmm..

Wednesday
• Went to UPD.. Asar ung bf ni Roxanne!! Naghanapan kami sa sunken garden.. amph.. parang ang liit lang ng lugar na un ha.. Then went to trinoma, strolling lang kami.. Nung nagsawa lipat sa SM North, tawid lang naman un eh.. Got pissed with roxanne’s friend billy (feeling kasi, grr!! He keeps on calling me “babe” err.. snabi niya kay Roxanne na kami na dhl nkpgkwentuhn ako sa kanya sa phone.. haha!! Whatever..) so I went home early..

Thursday
• Gateway.. Di na ako sumama sa tropa instead I went to rob meet w/ a friend.. Kain sa chef d’ angelo (not that satisfied sa food, well, di lang cguro masarap ung inorder ko..), karaoke, watched a movie, 30 days of nights, hmm.. tingin-tingin ng phone and books..

Friday
• Tinamad na kaming pumunta ng MOA kasi umuulan instead, we’ve decided to go to divisoria.. yehey!! Shopping!! Super fun!! ^.^

What a stress less week.. sana ganito na lang palagi.. hek3.. wala kaming ginawa kung di mag mall hopping at karaoke.. bwahaha!! Kawawa si theena, nawalan ng boses.. ;p even though stress less ang week ko.. Di maiiwasan magkaroon ng problems.. O well, I’ll leave this problem to God, ayaw ko na rin kasi magdecide eh.. ^.^

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megamall naman! karaoke ulet tayo. Gagu ka, hayop ka sumayaw pok-pok ka talaga!

By  Anonymous, at 11/11/2007 12:51:00 PM  

wehe.. sino ka?? theena, roxanne, o miel??

roxanne: atleast hindi ako nahubaran.. so embarrassing.. hahaha!! eww!! tss...

theena & miel: kaya nga nabuo ang tropa dahil naging pok2 tayo sa play.. hahaha!! LOLZ.. ;P

By  Jelai, at 11/11/2007 01:03:00 PM  

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the love i want ; Grr!! I so hate having this strange feeling.. hmm.. can’t explain but the easiest way I can is-doubts!! Yes, doubts AGAIN!! (you know the feeling when you don’t trust a certain person, you tried to scrutinize everything.. (friendster, friends, recall the bitter memories that leads you to anger..) I had my check up last Wednesday and my uncle told me that I am being a paranoid (like what my friend said) and one day he’ll personally take me to a rehab better yet, to a mental hospital.. (haha!! Ok laugh all you want.. LOL.. :P )

I thought I’ve overcome this feeling but I guess I was wrong.. Huhu!! Gladly, a little convincing is all I need and voila, back to normal.. ^.^ I want to perish these feeling!! =’S A little improvement of myself, I have to admit.. I learned not to emotionally get hurt when it comes to my.. hmm.. ISSUES about it.. ;) (if you know what I’m saying.. haha!!)

“I’m ok” that’s what I always say on the contrary.. I’m not!! :P I’m stressing over my own emotional problems and started reading some emotional problems..(That’s what my prof. told me.. hmm. Emotion communicates.. Translation: I can’t control my emotions. If I can, I can accurately display trust, empathy, and confidence.)One way is to restore or rebuild my emotional intelligence.. (Don't get me wrong, its not a disorder.. hmm.. That's what I'm lacking of.. :P)

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the love i want ;

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Saw this quiz from a friend's blog.. Hey, why not try?! Totoo nga ba ito?! Even though I am a bit confused if chemistry is my thing.. Hmm.. I was hoping that Psychology fits me.. ^.^ hek3..

grr!! I'm so pissed w/ a friend.. Don't ask why and I can't help it especially when she/he uses words that enlightens me.. aww.. I get so soft that easily.. huhuhu!! I don't want to tolerate him/her but what can I do she/he needs my help, that what friends do.. ^.^ (hulaan niyo na lang kung babae o lalaki.. basta is alang dun. heheh.. ayaw ko kasi magtampo siya..)

Huhu!! vacation's finally over, parang ayaw ko pa tuloy pumasok.. 0.o
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the love i want ;
aww.. this picture is so adorable!! haha!! that kitty looks like from the gremlins movie, the cute and good gremlin of course.. ;) aww.. I want this cat.. haha!! di ko naman alam kung anong breed nun.. hehehe.. :P
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About me:
 ¼ Chinese (Father) ¼ Spanish (mother) & ½ (Filipino)
 Can sometimes be a pain in the ass
 Paranoid
 Kind
 Picky
 Loves pets (especially cats)
 listening to music, watching movies and eating are my passion
 guileless
 Creative w/ such things (haha!! Especially when it comes to gifts)
 hates being imitated
 friendly
 juvenile
 Can understand Korean, French and Spanish… partially..
 an athlete
 loves reading books and magazines
 Moody
 Nosy
 Loves to discover new things
 Loves taking pictures
 Designer
 Easily pleased
 IMPERFECT!!