the love i want ; "Because Of You- Kelly Clarkson"

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hardI've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of youI learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of youI never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of youI learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of youI try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of youI don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of youI'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of youI am afraid

Because of you
Because of you
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the love i want ; D aq maka2log grabe!! E2 nga pala.. cnabi ni Arvin sa akin na may iba na c Mj.. Hmm.. tapos c Andrew pa rw ang pinalit nia sa knya ha!! First reaction q.. Shocking and may panghihinayang.. pero unti-unti parang nagiging concern aq sa knya?! Haha!! Weird!! Tapos pakiramdam q naaasar aq kay Mj kc parang inisip q.. bakit q hinayaan c Arvin?? Sana pinaglaban q pa rin xa kht na alam qng mahal nia c Mj.. Cnabi q nga un kay Ate Chinky and then she asked me qng may feelings pa nga raw aq kay Arvin.. May feelings pa nga ba kaya aq sa kanya?? Cnasabi q lng ba na wla na?? Eh, nkkapagmahal na aq ng iba tapos d na aq nassaktan sa knya.. He said na nggoodbye na rw cla sa isa’t isa.. E2 pa nga pla.. parang pakiramdam q.. mahalin ko ba kaya siya ulit?? Whaha!! Ang dami q namang tanong!! Hehe.. bahala na lang!!
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the love i want ; Akala q patay nanaman aq sa Daddy q!! Guess wat.. nacra q ang monitor ng computer q!! Pagkaalis nia papuntang Japan dun nag-umpisa.. Shet!! Knabahan tlga aq!! Nakailang computer na kc aq nacra eh!! Dahil sa *ahem* pag-iinstall ng ROSE.. hehe.. buti na lang ng dinala namin sa SM.. sandali lang talaga ang life span ng monitor buti nga raw at umabot ng 8 yrs. Ung sa akin kc usually mga 3-5 yrs. Lang un.. kaya ngaun may bago na aqng monitor.. ang sakit nga sa mata!! D q pa alam qng san ang mga buttons n2 para naman ma-adjust q na ung lights n2!!
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the love i want ; Nung lunch tym nlapitan kmi ni Arvin sa table qng saan nkaupo kmi ni Herbert.. at that tym naalala q ung pagsasamahan namin dati.. tapos e2 pa pla.. nung umalis c Herbert sabay kaming 2mayo ni Arvin at hinila namin xa pabalik.. As in nagulat aq kc same reaction lang kmi.. hmm.. nagkakahiyaan kami?? marami nga aq gs2ng sabhin kay Arvin na d q masabi sa kanya.. Basta sa ipammgay qng cd dun q na lng ilalagay..
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the love i want ; Aus lang naman sa akin kung ayaw ng ibang tao ung aking short story.. Marami ang nagalit sa akin?? O xa lang tlga ang nagalit sa akin at dnadamay nia lang ung ibang tao?? D q naman gs2ng ipublish ung story q kc ayaw q rin mag-away kami pero cno ba ang nagsabi sa akin; “magpasa ka pa! Cge au slang ung short story mo!” Sounds familiar?! Hmm.. sa una naurat aq.. pero bnale wala q na lang ang cnabi nia.. may nagpasa kc sa akin knina.. :)
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the love i want ; At last!! Wala kaming pasok!! Hehe.. Now I have d chance gwn ung mga ipapamigay q sa mga frends q!! Can’t believe it.. 37 people ha!! Hehe.. Ok lang naman sa akn un.. Once q lang naman 2 ggwn..
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the love i want ; Shet!! One month to go na lng pla bago lahat ng 4th. Yr. mg retreat!! Klangan q ng umpisahan ang paggawa ng mga letter.. hehe.. Ibang klaseng letter ung ggwin q.. Unique!! Kht cno wlang mkkaicp nun!! Sa mga special people q lang xempre ibbgay!!
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the love i want ; Nakasakit aq ng damdamin ng 2 tao.. pero bakit aq pnapaconsenxa?! Cnabi q naman sa kanila na wag na nla aqng hintayin kc may mahal na aqng iba.. ung isa ngdamdam tapos ung 1 nagdrama kaysa d na raw xa mkkahanap ng isang k2lad q, d na niya alam qng mgmamahal pa xa ng iba.. Shet!! So dramatic!!

Naaawa aq kay Kristine but I know she can do it.. she really can move on w/ Mark.. Plano nia raw mglaslas or something.. I totally understand her.. dati nga gnawa q un pero ngaun parang pnagccchan q qng bakit q un gnawa sa 1 k2lad nia.. Narealize q rin na bkt aq ngpapaka-gago sa isang k2lad nia?! Basta ngaun alam q na.. MAHAL NA MAHAL ko c Frances!! So wat qng saktan nia aq?? Gawin nia ulit ung gnawa nia kay Joanna?? Alam qng d nia un ggwin sa akin.. Am I the only one naniniwala na may kabuthan sa puso nia?? Kc naman mrami ang nagssabi sa akin masama xa.. Naku, I want to prove them wrong.. Mabait c Frances!! Kahit d q xa gnun pa kakilala, ipapakta q pa rn sa lht ng tao na mabait xa!! Sabi dn ng iba.. “dba kaibigan nia c Arvin tapos magkakagus2 ka sa knya??” So wat naman?! Para naman kapag ngmahal ka ng 1 tao my rules?? Hindi noh!!
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the love i want ; Careless Whisper- George Michael

I feel so unsure,
As I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor.
As the music dies...
Something in your eyes,
Calls to mind a silver screen,
And all those sad goodbyes.

Chorus
I’m never gonna dance again,
Guilty feet have got no rhythm.
Though it’s easy to pretend,
I know you’re not a fool.
I should have no better than to cheat a friend,
And waste the chance that I’d been given.
So I’m never gonna dance again,
The way I danced with you.

Time can never mend,
The careless whispers of a good friend.
To the heart and mind,
If your answer’s kind...
There’s no comfort in the truth
,Pain is all you’ll find.

Repeat chorus

What am I without your love?
Tonite the music seems so loud,
I wish that we could lose the crowd.
Maybe it’s better this way,
We’d hurt each other with the things we want to say.
We could have been so good together,
We could have made this last forever...
But now, who’s gonna dance with me?
Please stay.

(alternatively):
And now it’s never gonna be
That way...

Repeat chorus
Now that you’re gone...
Now that you’re gone...
Now that you’re gone...
Was what I did so wrong?
So wrong that you had to leave me alone?
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the love i want ; I really like assumption!! I feel lyk that’s my place.. The students are ok.. I even met someone.. Her name is Katrina.. She’s from ortigas.. I even saw some of my past classmates.. sa St. James.. Mabuti nga at magkakilala pa kmi.. hehe.. I also saw Carmel.. at first naiinis aq.. well, nabangag lang cguro aq nung pnancn q xa, kc sabi ng kaibigan ni Cudz nandun mamaya ang hale.. Yes!! It’s a good thing na lang at may kakilala aq inside the assumption.. Nasa Front seats aq!! Whaha!! I texted AC and Alyen.. Humingi pa nga clan g favor qng pwedeng picturn q cla.. Yes, I did took a picture w/ them.. Haha!! Nkapasok pa nga pla aq sa backstage!! I have the best tym tlga!! I met some of my cuzin’s friends tapos nakapasa pa tlga aq!! Yahoo!! Ngaun sana talaga pumayag ung Daddy q na dun na lang aq mag-aral kc parang ayaw nia.. lam mo na.. All girls tapos sa makati pa..

2ngkol naman sa newspaper.. I'm almost don.. sana ipublish 2ng article q 'bout kay joshua!! I juz realize na gs2 qng aq ung article na mag-iinterview sa mga talented students.. 2 know them more.. hehe.. is frances a talented student?? For me yes!! hehe.. he's good in playing table tennis hmm.. one tym iinterview q xa.. ofcourse I have to tally first from other students.. Klangan tlga next wk.. nandun aq sa laban ni Frances!! I'm gonna cheer him.. support him!! :)
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the love i want ; I'm not sure qng gs2 q ngaun sa Y.J.. E1 q lang but the part na ggwa ng news like sa DOPPSA.. IT's just not like me.. I'm the one na pang entertainment lang..

D q mapapalagpas 2ng gossip.. basta guess who na lang.. "cno naman 2ng tao ang PA-ANGEL effect pero d naman bagay!! Sa ipinakta nia raw mukhang xa pa ang victim sa situation!! haha!! I really despite this byotch!!" Umm.. I think she has a new look.. d q pa nkkta ung itsura nia but bkt xa may new look?? Klan xa magpaparetoke?! whaha!! Hmm.. wat I think, dapat rin niang baguhin ang kanyang ugali!! here's a clue qng cno 2ng girl na tnutukoy q.. Pa-tweetums effect sa mga tao pero sa kabila non.. PLASTIK xa!! D nia alam marami ang naiinis sa knya dhl maxado xang O.A all the time!! Now, sa boys opinion naman sbout her.. sabi ni ----- nakakairita ang isang k2lad nia.. maxado raw insecure kc nkita nilang gnagaya aq!! whaha!! kay ----- naman pilit niang inaabot ang d nia kayang iabot.. k2lad ng.. basta un na un!! hehe.. kwawa naman xa.. bka kc mgreact ung iba dyan.. hehe.. :p
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the love i want ; Aun.. ktext q xa.. hehe.. O my God I’m so happy!! :) qng sakaling mangyari ulit ung k2lad sa amin ni Arvin.. d q na xa ppakawalan pa.. the 3rd ones a lucky charm!! Hehe.. I really love him dat much talaga!! Kahit na cnasabhan nla aqng, ung taste q kakaiba.. mayabang siya.. iba na lang ang piliin q.. wla aqng pakialam.. Basta ang alam ko, love ko xa!!
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the love i want ; Could It Be- Christy Carlson Romano

I Know we’ve been friends forever
But now I think I’m feeling something new
and after all this time I opened up my eyes
now I see you were always with me

[chorus]
could it be you & I
never imagined
could it be suddenly I’m fallin’ for you
could it be you were right here beside me and I never knew
could it be that it’s true
It’s you and it’s you

It’s kinda funny you were always near
but who would ever thought we’d end up here
and every time I need you you’ve been there for me
now it’s clear I’ve been waiting for you

[chorus]

cause today is the start of the rest of our lives
I can see it in your eyes
and it’s real/and it’s true
It’s just me and you
could it be that it’s you

[chorus]
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the love i want ; Ngaun lang ulit aq nagkaroon ng time maglagay ng entry sa blog q!! Well, 1st runner-up kami sa Broadway!! =) hindi man kami nag champion.. At least may 1 goal kami nagawa at un ay.. -------------- hehe.. ckre2ng malupet un!! ;)

I can believe I'm saying this but.. I love my class!! It all started nung sa broadway.. nagkkwen2han kmi 2ngkol sa love lyf.. and lalong naging ok ung grupo nung nandun kmi sa bahay nla Thirdy.. Kami nla Kristine, AC, Mitch, Pam, and Iris.. Sumali pa nga sa amn si Ate Marie.. Basta tawag namin sa aming sarili.. Ang Tropang Sawi.. (ofcourse, where else pa ba eh d sa pag-ibig!!) D pa kmi gnun tapos sa usapn naman kc gabi na rn nung nag-umpisa kami.. Masaya.. Totally heart breaking ang mga kwen2 nla kht aq nga naiiyak sa mga storya nla..

Tomorrow I have to comfort Herbert because of what happened.. Alam q ang nararamdaman niya.. Naramdaman q rin kc yan pero alam qng malalagpasan nia rin un.. Right now, all he need is a friend para 2lungan xang ilabas ang sakit ng nararamdaman nia.. =) hmm.. kakayanin q kaya xa i-comfort?? Naku, sana naman sumama sa amin si Arvin.. Para na rin bumalik ang dating bonding naming 3.. Xempre d namn hahayaang tuldukn ang pagssamahan namn dahl sa wla na ang forum nla at wla na rn c Herbert sa best section.. Huhu!! gs2 q manood ng Hale sa SM Sucat!! Pero d pwde.. Friends First!! 22lungan q muna c Herbert sa problem nia.. d rin cguro aq magging masaya kc inaalala q rin c Herbert..
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About me:
 ¼ Chinese (Father) ¼ Spanish (mother) & ½ (Filipino)
 Can sometimes be a pain in the ass
 Paranoid
 Kind
 Picky
 Loves pets (especially cats)
 listening to music, watching movies and eating are my passion
 guileless
 Creative w/ such things (haha!! Especially when it comes to gifts)
 hates being imitated
 friendly
 juvenile
 Can understand Korean, French and Spanish… partially..
 an athlete
 loves reading books and magazines
 Moody
 Nosy
 Loves to discover new things
 Loves taking pictures
 Designer
 Easily pleased
 IMPERFECT!!