the love i want ; I have this strange feeling lately.. Parang nararamdaman kong nagsasawa na ako sa company niya or is it we’re having this long gap na not like the past na lagi kami magkasama.. Hmm.. Back to my old self nanaman ako tuwing gabi -nag-iisip at nagssenti nga kung minsan.. Ano na nga ba nangyayari sa amin?? Yes, I still treasure him kahit na sobra niya akong nasaktan.. Well, siguro nga dahil sa sobrang busy ang schedules namin.. ='S
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the love i want ; One thing I learned in my psych class..

"Having doubts doesn't mean you mistrust a person but what it means is that you want to clarify things."

aww. haha!! tama nga naman.. ;)

haay, why am I feeling so sad? Tinamaan nga ba ako sa conversation namin ni Roxanne kanina? err.. its not about having doubts but about being hurt.. Yes, I've through that all the time.. Well, maiba naman ito.. ='S tsk3.. (don't get me wrong.. I've got a lot of issues about myself.. ;D )
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the love i want ; in the 8 facts about (name) you share 8 things that your readers don't know about you. then at the end you tag 8 other bloggers to keep the fun going. each blogger must post these rules first.
♥ each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
♥ bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
♥ at the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
♥ don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog.

1. I know all the different breeds of dogs.
2. I'm good sa mga word search. (kahit na sinasabi nilang malabo mata ko, I can spot the object I'm looking for easily.)
3. mas madali akong nakakapag-isip o nakakapag-aral ako pag gabi kaysa sa umaga. (kaya nga nagtataka ung mga kaklase ko sa akin, hindi nila ako nkikitang ngrreview pag may test pero nakakapasa ako.. :P)
4. ngssleep texting ako.. (haha!! kung minsan hindi ko alam kung ano ang nsabi ko, magugulat na lang ako kinabukasan pag binasa ko ung mga sent items sa phone ko..)
5. may times na natatakot din ako (especially after watching scary movies) tumatabi ako sa parents ko at sa kanila ako natutulog..
6. pinag-aaralan/inoobserve ko ang bawat kilos at pananalita ng bawat tao. (lalo na ung mga taong lagi kong nakakasama.. hehehe.. :P waha!! natutunan ko un sa psych.. bawat kilos at sinasabi ng tao may iba't ibang meaning.)
7. there are times na I do hate myself and I cried.. Haay, (kala niyo narcistic ako.. di noh.. :P)
8. I hate cleaning my room..

tagging; arvin, ate kc, diane, roxanne, theena, ate jane, ate arriane and kuya ronel.. ;) (ung iba dyan wag kj ha!!)
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the love i want ; Ok, so I can say that I am through grieving with my lost wallet incident last Wednesday.. Sobrang ntouch ako sa isa kong friend, he gave me a wallet no.. a purse pala.. He told me na dapat ung purse ang ginagamit ko not the large ones para lahat ng memorable things ko, hindi ko ilagay sa wallet para pag once na nawala ulit un pera lang at hindi na ako malulungkot… Kasi mas iniyakan ko pa daw ung mga bagay na un kaysa sa pera.. wahaha!! :P

Nagiging close na ako dito sa isa kong ka-blockmate dahil sa cheering and siya ang seatmate ko nung field trip.. Some of our blockmates calls her Kiray (kasi naman kamukha nga naman niya si Kiray) well, she’s Roxanne.. Naisip ko lang kahapon, sobra ko siyang kinaiinisan nung 1st month but she’s ok.. We chatted so much hanggang sa naging open na ako sa kanya.. Surprisingly, she gave me love advices.. Aww.. But I don’t need love advices, dahil wala na ako niyan.. ^.^
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the love i want ; Still grieving for my lost wallet.. huhuhu!! Syet!! Ba’t di ko pa rin matanggap na nawala nay un.. I know its just any other material stuff pero sobrang mahalaga ang mga laman nun dahil ibinigay pa un ng mga taong importanteng sa akin.. umm.. not the money and my cards kasi mapapalitan naman un eh.. pero ung mga pictures and letters na binigay ng mga tao sa akin.. There’s jr’s bookmark which he gave me last 2 years.. letters from my bez, amand’s sorry letter, pictures w/c my friends gave me, ung ticket na pnanuod ko sa cinemalaya w/ Diane, Alyssa’s goodbye letter.. wah!! Ang dami pa syet!! Those things are irreplaceable.. =’S
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the love i want ; Remember this day.. August 21, 2007.. Most embarrassing thing I did.. syet!! Super!! =’S well, I had fun naman sa umpisa pero after nun, narealize ko na nakakahiya pala ung ginawa ko at sa harap pa ng maraming tao.. waah!! Di ko na un uulitin kahit na play lang un..
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the love i want ; I can’t sleep and it’s already past 2:30am.. Huhu!! Masyado kasi naging emotional ang gabi ko.. Ok, I’ve been thinking and at some point, I realize something.. Well, I want to dedicate my entry to my dear bezie.. ^.^

I asked myself a thousand times if what is a true friend? Often, I have struggled to understand what makes one person there, truly, more than the next. We all go through life with different people by our sides at different times in our lives. But some people distinguish themselves. They are true friends.

There are times in all of our lives when we need the comfort and solace of someone who understands completely, and for some reason, continues to help us when we are at our worst, perhaps even exhausting them.

To me, a true friend understands. Not the kinds that say they will be there for you and then are purposely. They are the kind that says they’ll be there, then are, and amaze you with how devoted they really are.

Going through a time of crisis reveals that your real friends are. It’s not to say that those who are not there for you in these bad times are not good people or good friends. But you get to see their true dedication and when you face the hardships.
But your real, true, friends are the ones who come through with flying colors, when you do not even have to ask. There is something magical about the bonds of true friendship. Though you may not have many kinds of these people in your life, be thankful for the ones who are there. The people in our lives are a blessing.

When going through rough times, don’t expect everyone to understand, you will just be let down more if they do not. Reach out to your friends if you want them to understand, and give them the opportunity to help. (They aren’t mind readers! Believe me.. :P I used to believe that they are because of what they say “emotional attached” like twins.. but I thing that should be categorized under soulmates??)

If you do not find someone to understand, you know that the person has not defined themselves in your eyes as the kind of person who will be there through thick and thin. You can still value people in your life who are not “till the end” friends. These people have just as much to offer, and it should be said that each person in your life is there for a reason. If a friend just does not get the idea that you need him or her, try and understand what that person is going through, or how they view the relationship. And most of all, don’t expect everyone to run to your aid. Everyone is busy with his or her own lives.

However, you will find a friend who will be there for you, and you will never truly be alone. Open your eyes to the people in your life and look for someone who you can depend on. Most of all, return the favor! When someone goes out on the line for you, you should do the same. A simple “Thank You” to a friend should do the trick, who have helped you through rough times and let them know how much you appreciate all the efforts they have done, and who they are. ^.^
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the love i want ;
My lost cousin, Kristiene(kasama ko sa pic..).. Well, di naman siya lost pero gusto ko lang tawaging lost siya.. wehehe.. ;P Nagulat na lang ako nang balitaan ako ni Eco na may kakilala siya na kamag-anak ako.. Sa umpisa pa nga lang di ako naniwala pero nung pinakilala niya sa akin si Kristiene.. Ayan na.. Actually di ko siya natatandaan pero siya natatandaan niya pa ako.. Last namin pagkikita ay nung 1994 pa.. (wow!! ang galing ng memory niya ha..) ANW.. di muna ako naniwalang kamag-anak ko siya so I started asking her questions.. at nasagot naman niya lahat.. hahaha!! ^.^ aww.. Isang malaking surprise un sa akin.. ^.^
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the love i want ; Shet, explain ko lang poh about sa previous entry ko.. Haay, hindi poh ako galit sa kanya.. May mga times na bigla na lang sumasama ang loob ko but I tend not to have that feeling cause I don't want to hate that's why binubuhos ko lahat dito.. And no, its not Armand.. hahaha!! Sorry kung di ko inaacept ung mga comment niyo sa entry ko.. Kung mgppost kasi kayo, kung maaari, no unwanted words ok?! ano pa ba.. 1/4 poh yan ng aking assign.. ung iba hindi ko na nilagay dahil masyado na siyang personal..

Well, npagisip-isip ko.. bahala na ang panahon sa amin.. Ang tatlong taon ay sobrang bilis lang.. Kaya kailangan magpakasaya na muna ako.. ^.^

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the love i want ; Waha!! I would like to share my assignment to all.. Well, its not yet finish pero gusto ko siyang ipost sa blog ko.. hehehe.. I did not include the last part because the last paragraph was TOO personal.. wee!! ^.^ but I do promise, maganda ang last part niya.. hek3.. hmm.. feel ko may mga wrong grammar ako.. wehe.. pgpasensyahan niyo na.. rush lang yan.. ;)

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I was born on 19th of May 1989 in Caloocan, second of the three siblings. I grew up in Quezon City not until we moved in Parañaque then to Las Piñas. My Father, Valeriano Veloso Jr. the eldest son in a family of two sons and two daughters.

My Father worked for the Philippine Philharmonic Orchestra at the Cultural Center of the Philippines, as a Violinist. My mother, Escolastica Bajamundi, fourth of the six siblings. At the time of my birth she was working as one of the commercial advertisements.

I was raised as a brat by my parents; all the material possessions I wanted are all given to me. My parents don’t expect anything from me like being great in everything, they just want me to enjoy life and at the same time doing well with my studies. I never imagined myself having a goal or ambition in life not until I am in High School.

My life changed when I met this boy. A confidant, a lover, an enemy. He usually describes himself as tall, dark and handsome but for me its the opposite side. Short, sharp-witted, yes, he is dark as well. He is one of the reasons that made me who I am today. We started as “fillermates” (communicating on each other using cattleya fillers.) until our friendship grew to the next level. Even though things didn’t end up very well, we remained mutually. There are times that we fought and promised to forget each other, but faith leads us back together. With numerous disputations we had or even our rise and downfalls, never did we abandon each other. Maybe a part of transition in our relationship or a part of me which cannot accept that what faith wants us to be is to remain friends and forever friends.

When I become a college freshman, I began looking my purpose in life. Many questions bothered inside me; what do I really want to be? Am I a better person? Am I good enough? The questions I keep on baffling myself when I am not satisfied with my own self. I thought that having many friends will help you do great things but instead, they can be the one that pulls you down from ascending. That’s how I become a recluse from the society. Anger rises as my friends took advantage of me; the meaning of a friend gives me the antipathy and the vision of cynicism to all.

As I think, seek, and alter my whole self, I become more eager in being perfect. I can see how my friend soars through and through in achieving his dreams while I was being left behind. I tried to be the best of the best.

At the age of 17, I started having interest in working. It was the final week of March that I began seeking a job. I entered as a freelance writer for two months but as classes began I stopped working to focus on my studies. Because of the pressure and insecurity I have with him yet again, I search for a different career. With the help of my cousin I entered in the field of modeling, a body image model in Saikou Talent Agency. This time I knew that what I am doing is what I really like.

I wanted to blame him of what I have become. There are times that he made me feel useless, and unconsciously trampling my whole individual. In a way I want to prove something but I did, realizing that my search of purpose had become more meaningless because what I am doing is not for myself but to compete and prove something that I was and never will be left behind more likely as to revenge. Yet, I want start from scratch to search my real self. (besides, changing for others won't do me any good..)
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the love i want ; I'm halfway in finishing my scrapbook for psych.. whew!! Last night I couldn’t sleep so I surf the net and surprisingly, I chatted with a friend.. Well, we chatted until 2:00am.. I think.. Many things popped on my mind.. That’s the time I started doing my scrapbook.. hahaha!! Funny to think of it.. only one night.. :P I guess nagpakasenti ako.. At that time, I realize something.. Maybe being too honest is a bad thing.. Some people believe you but either way it is an opportunity to take advantage of you or not.. Others won't believe you and think that you are lying.. haay.. Sana pala may mga bagay na hindi ko na lang sinabi ang totoo, hindi ko kasi aakalaing ako rin pala mapapasama sa iba.. Well, another lesson learned.. ;) Next time.. I WILL put some limits with my actions..
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the love i want ; I was sent home by my prof yesterday because of my sore eyes.. huhuhu!! Yes, I have them for the very first time in my entire life!! Grr!! Would you imagine.. I even pleaded to my prof not to not unless I finish his exam.. (wow!! Nagawa ko nga un..) Ayan, he told me he’ll give me a special test when I’m fully recovered from my condition.. It’s a good thing we don’t have classes today kung hindi naku.. I missed 2 days of my class.. Right now, I’ll grab this time to work on my scrapbook and fix our script for the class play in psych.. (hindi poh ako scriptwriter, taga ayos lang ako.. hehehe.. ;p )
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About me:
 ¼ Chinese (Father) ¼ Spanish (mother) & ½ (Filipino)
 Can sometimes be a pain in the ass
 Paranoid
 Kind
 Picky
 Loves pets (especially cats)
 listening to music, watching movies and eating are my passion
 guileless
 Creative w/ such things (haha!! Especially when it comes to gifts)
 hates being imitated
 friendly
 juvenile
 Can understand Korean, French and Spanish… partially..
 an athlete
 loves reading books and magazines
 Moody
 Nosy
 Loves to discover new things
 Loves taking pictures
 Designer
 Easily pleased
 IMPERFECT!!