YThursday, June 28, 2007 ; 12:52 PM
is the love i cant have
My Lola Nena died last Monday.. Hmm.. We haven't decided if we're going to her funeral or not.. Hindi ko pa alam kung ano ba talaga ang cause of death niya kasi sabi "na-nuno" then Lola Lil' said na may nakain daw siyang food na allergic siya.. I felt bad for my cousin Tonette.. Cancel ang kanyang kasal this Saturday.. How ironic.. (parang nangyari sa Tita ko.. Days before her wedding, naaksidente ang lolo ko..)My blockmates.. It's not that I don't like them or don't want to mingle with them. The fact is, I do.. Hmm.. I already discussed this to a close friend.. haha!! buti na lang at naiintindihan niya ako dahil siya rin pala.. ganun din ang nararamdaman niya sa kanyang blockmates.. (Diane, ikaw 'toh!! hehehe.. :P) ang hirap kasi kumilos.. They know me as a shy, silent, nice type of girl.. Minsan nakita nila akong nakipagharutan kay Diane, bigla ba naman akong sinabihan. "hala jels! ikaw ba yan?!" tapos minsan, nakipagbiruan pa ako sa kanila.. Ako ba naman ang tipo na grabe kung manlait.. what they said.. "nag-iba ang tingin ko sayo!" tsk3.. o well, unti-unti ko rin ilalabas ang tunay na jelai.. ^^,) hehehe..
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may she rest in peace. i can only give you my condolences here...
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***jane***, at
6/30/2007 08:38:00 PM
YFriday, June 22, 2007 ; 10:27 PM
is the love i cant have
Yehey!! Tapos na rin ang isang linggong walang pahinga.. haay.. ano ba.. umm.. nagkasakit ako, I was named “The walking Calculator” err.. (kasi ang bilis ko raw magsolve ng math problems.. umm.. that was pre-calculus and mechanics.. haha!! My prof in pre-calculus, Prof. Infante, inorasan pa ako to see if how fast can I solve an equation and it only took me less than a minute.. She even tested kung talaga bang magaling ako.. pnagmultiply, add, subtract at divide ako mentally.. hello?! Pinagtripan ako.. hahaha!!) Dahil sa 3 hours ang vacant namin kanina.. Ayan, nag-umpisa na ang open forum.. Because we’re science majors, ntopic namin kung sino sa tingin namin ang mag-eexcel sa klase they said sina Lovelyn, Camille, Tony, Ireene and me.. (Ganun?! Dahil lang ba sa pre-calculus incidence na yan..) hmm.. don’t expect too much from me.. Pinapagawa pa nga nila ako ng script para sa prof. ed 2 namin.. huhu!! Di nga ako marunong eh..Every 5:30, nakikita ko sina Armand, Carolyn, Diane and Vian sa 3rd floor hallway ng CED (tapos 7:00 si Rex naman..hehehe..).. I confess, I really miss them so much.. Iba na kasi kung hindi na sila ang nakakasama mo araw-araw.. Haay, there are times na hinahanap-hanap ko ang kulitan naming block..
Grabe, nag-uumpisa na ang pgppressure ng mga prof. sa amin.. huhuhu!! =’S sana makayanan ko’toh..
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YTuesday, June 12, 2007 ; 10:24 PM
is the love i cant have
First day as a College Sophomore.. My goodness, nakakapagod.. imagine, 12 hours ka nasa school?! Kahit na maaga na ako natulog (umm.. 11:30pm?! Hehehe.. :P) pagod pa rin ako.. Every break time namin kanina, natutulog ako.. wee!! Ayoko na ng full load sched ko... haha!! Buhay pa kaya ako after 5 months?! ;P nakakatuwa mga kaklase ko ngayon, 1st day pa lang pakapalan na ng mukha.. Ok fine.. so, kinapalan ko na rin mukha ko.. hehe.. As if we’ve known each other, nambabara na, nang-iinsulto.. err.. ewan ko kung talaga bang loko un or they really mean it.. 15 nga lang pala kami sa klase.. ^ .^Philippine’s Next Top Model
Grr!! I get so irritated with this show.. 1st of all.. What’s with Ruffa Gutierrez-Bektas?! She’s not even a model.. hello?! Why didn’t let Melanie Marquez (considering her one of the Ford models.), Tweety De Leon or even Den Abesamis host the show.. They ARE well-known models in the Philippines.. hmm.. besides, Ruffa doesn’t know how to host a show.. (e.g. sa the buzz..”ah..”, “hmm..” tapos sa Next top model, she’s just repeating what Tyra says in her show.. haha!! Nakakatawa..)
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YSaturday, June 09, 2007 ; 2:36 AM
is the love i cant have
Grr!! Sa Tuesday na pala pasukan namin.. huhuhu!! I thought it was on Thursday.. haay.. I can’t sleep.. err.. many things inside my mind.. hmm.. might as well post something.. I felt sorry for Carolyn, away nanaman kasi sila ni Jerico.. So to ease the pain, we went out.. I hope now she’s ok.. ^^,)Ba’t nga ba hindi na ako nag-uunli? Un ang kadalasang tanong sa akin. Tsk3..masyado niyo naman ata ako namiss.. hahaha!! Pwes, eto ang kasagutan.. napapagod na akong ulit-ulitin sagutin ang mga tanong ninyo.. R1: nililimitahan ko ang sarili ko sa pagttext dahil magpapasukan na. R2: pag nakikipag-usap ako sa inyo, hindi nagtatagal ang ating pinag-uusapan. Mas maganda kung all day texting din para sulit sa unli.. ;) hehehe.. Bakit un na lang ang lagi niyong tanong?!
-“kumsta na?”
-“eto ok lang.”
-“Ano ng balita sayo?”
-“wala naman ikaw?”
-“wala naman din, ano bang ginagawa mo?”
-“eto nagbabasa/nannuod ng tv/ngp-pc. kaw”
(Haha!! This could go forever!! Nakakasawa ung mga ganitong conversation diba?! Mas maigi na lang sa YM makipag-usap atleast pag nagsasawa o naiirita ka sa kausap mo pwede kang mgpalusot na kailangan mo ng umalis. Haha!! Invisible mode kagad ako niyan!! ;) )
R3: Can you be my textmate? Iritang-irita ako sa mga taong nagttext sa akin ng ganito. Mas gugustuhin ko pang deretsahan ako. “Hi, ako si ------- friend ako ni ------.” Un dapat!! Haha!! Anyways, kahit ganun nga ang itext sa akin hindi ko ineentertain ang mga hindi ko kakilala.. Introduce yourself face-to-face saka kita ittext. Kaya kung sino man ang nagbibigay ng number ko, pwede bang magpaalam muna sa akin?!
R4: Napapaaway ako.. hahaha!! ;p gulo1: nagbubura ako ng mga numbers kaya ung mga long-time-no-text people.. pasensya na.. magtampo na kayo kung gusto niyo, tagal niyo kasi di nagpaparamdam kaya kinakailangan ko kayong tanggalin sa phonebook ko.. gulo2: ung isa diyan na mahilig magsend ng quotes.. wushu!! Tinatamaan ako.. hahaha!!
R5: Nagiging daily routine ko na ang pagttext ko sayo. Pagkatapos ng last away natin. I told myself not to stick to you too much.. Masyado kasi akong possessive.. hehehe.. Since then, pag naka unli ka bahala na lang ako kung mag-uunli din ako (that is kung ginaganahan ako magtext2.. hek3..) at ikaw na ang mag-iimbita kung gusto mong magkita tayo sa hang-out place natin.. Maghihintay na lang ako sa iyong imbitasyon.. ^.^
Hmm.. To lessen these burden that I’ve been feeling right now, I’ll let it all out in here..
Kawawa ka naman. Ba’t ngayon naaalala mo na ata ako?! Dahil lang ba sa nagbreak na kayo, saka mo lang ako naalalang kamustahin. Grr!! Naiinis ako sa mga pinagttext mo. Wag mong sabihin na quotes lang un pero it makes sense. You said you made a mistake. Well, so do I.. Remember “Shame on you if you fool me once. Shame on me if you fool me twice.” I don’t want to make the same mistake again.
Hindi naman sa sinisisi ko siya sa aking nakaraan, hindi lang ako makapaniwalang maiisipan ko siya ng ganito. The truth is, I appreciated of what you did. Pero bakit nung mga oras na nasasaktan at umiiyak ako sa kanya wala siya?! Nung time na ok naman kami, nandyan ka na. Once I told him I don’t want to give up on him and continue to fight. Oo nga tinulungan mo ko but how could you say such things. “Ayaw sayo ng mom niya, mas gusto niya si ____.” It hurts.. Really!! That’s why I tried too damn hard to befriend his family.. Didn’t care less kung ano ang isipin nila sa akin o kahit magmukha pa akong desperada nuon.. Right now, I’m having this thoughts if what you’ve said in the past are all true.. Its hard to forget even though I’ve said this a million times –past is past, its better not to look back or even talk about it. Haay.. He’s still my friend, I don’t hate him but I’m just mad.
Makakaya ko ba talaga ngayong sem?! Haay, nakakapanghina ng loob pati ung schedule ko. Huhu!! My gosh, 12 hours?!?! I have to study very hard para maging cum laude. Err.. taas mangarap noh?! Hehehe.. ;P
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YTuesday, June 05, 2007 ; 12:58 AM
is the love i cant have
haha!! after 1 month, natagpuan ko na rin si Jonas!! Yehey!! Thanks ate Jane.. ^.^ mwahhzzz!!! hmm.. dahil sa malapit na ang birthday niya, I'm planning a surprise visit.. ;) err.. di ko pa pala alam kung san siya nakatira.. Once pa lang kasi ako nakakapunta sa bahay niya.. hek3.. ;P o well, madali na yun.. ^.^ hurray!! I'm going to see my long lost best!! =DpEoplE mAde mE cRy 1
hay nako no prob.. bsta b ssmhan mo q.. ay naku! sna lng tlga!!!
By ***jane***, at
6/07/2007 11:28:00 PM
YMonday, June 04, 2007 ; 12:12 AM
is the love i cant have
Going to make over my blogspot so it might take a while to completely finish this.. Grr!! It’s been years since I changed my layout so medyo nakalimutan ko na kung papaano ulit. Oh well, I’ll get used to it.. again.. hehehe.. This time shall be different. I'm so fed up with the dark and goth-type layout.Ok so does anyone watch Heroes lately? First saw on TV and I don’t think that it’s my type of program that I will watch. One day, chatting with Diane and she mentioned the show. I got curious and watched. Una ko siyang napanuod, my goodness.. Nagustuhan ko siya.. Because I’m so impatient to watch the next episode of Heroes, which is every Monday at 9pm on C/S. The next day, I rushed down to RFC and search for the Heroes DVD.. Haha!! Miraculously, meron akong nabili.. akala ko kasi wala pang DVD un and vola there it is.. nagseason 2 na pala siya.. Hurray!! ^.^
Last 2 nights, I’ve become moody again.. err.. A lot of questions popped out on my mind.. Haha!! The “what if” questions.. Hmm.. I’ll just shut up and never care because there are some questions that doesn’t need to be answered.. ^^,) Pero dati ba'y masaya siya sa company ko o masaya nga siya sa company ko dahil sa.. hmph.. Never mind.. ^.^ I like to admit one thing, minsan nagtatampo pa rin ako sa kanya kahit na alam niyang ok na kami.. Grr!! besides, I'm just like the addendum in his life.. (How ironic my fate is.. Always the afterthought.. :P hahaha!!) Ayoko ng sinasabihan niya akong
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YSunday, June 03, 2007 ; 2:16 AM
is the love i cant have
My days have been rainy though the sun's smiling raysIn a haze of confusion my heart can't find a way
To get rid of my heartache as I'm slowly dying
Weeping for a lost love I never had but still wanting.
Its been hard to let go and I'm crying every night
I've been trying to hide it but I just don't feel right
I've said my silent goodbye but I'm still falling apart
Everyday I keep feening and its breaking my heart.
Tell me how to end it so I can understand and see
Let me know what I did to make you stop loving me
I can fake a smile if that's what you want me to do
I can even pretend I'm okay just to be close again to you.
Sometimes I feel like you're all mine, just for a day
I wish for a time when we can make through the night away
And I'll always remember the time when you were
When I was the one in your arms and not her.
I miss you so much that I crumple in pain
So I just close my eyes and feel you're mine again
It'll ease my suffering even only for a minute
Then I'll live my life another day without you in it.
I don't know why not being with you is hurting me so much
I dream about you at night and I'm aching to feel your touch
Its harder to say goodbye now that I have to say it to you too
But until that day comes I'll just be heartbroken over you.
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YSaturday, June 02, 2007 ; 1:04 PM
is the love i cant have
Where did my essence in writing went? The past month, I stopped blogging. I don’t know maybe because of the “incident” if you know what I’m talking about. And now, I want to bring back my passion in writing.. Well, besides of my freelance writing job.“We keep on changing for others just to be liked or to be loved but did we ever thought of changing for the reason of being a greater person?” A thought from David Jeremiah, I am pretty much bothered of what a friend said.. “You’re domineering.” Haha!! Am I? Never did I notice that I’m starting to be a tyrant. I had to admit, I am changing some of my ways. Hek3. Don’t get me wrong, I’m doing this not to be liked nor to loved.
A few days to go until our classes start. I am scared, really!! =’S Can I make it this sem?! Last night, my uncle called and we had a little chat. He asked me if I’m definitely sure with my plans. Haha!! I don’t know, there are times that I’m having these second thoughts. One things for sure is that after I finish my bachelor’s degree, I am going to study again, not that certain if I’m going to take another course which is I.T. or continue Psychology or Chemistry. During my High School years, what I foresee is that I am going to be a photographer, a fashion consultant, a model(?) ;p not even once did I anticipate myself as a teacher?! (Hmm.. Sa totoo lang, gusto ko magwork sa office.. ^.^ ) We also have this agreement. Ok, so not only for me but also for my brothers and cousins. If one of us graduated with honors, he'll give us an all expense paid trip to the US (back and forth na un, siya na rin ang bahala sa gastusin namin. Shopping, food, etc.)
My cousin and I have this crazy idea, magpapa-VTR kami this Tuesday. Trip lang naman.. hehehe.. (ofcourse, pumayag ako kasi libre lang. Kakilala kasi ng mom niya ung owner. So, why not?! Besides, do you have any idea how much a single VTR cost?! Haha!! Grab the opportunity! Like she said, “It wouldn't hurt if we try. As well, we might get discover. ;)”)
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change is sometimes a good thing as long as u don't get too much of it, coz that might sometimes make ur barkada not like the way you've become.. of course they'll be looking 4 that person they befriended in HS... don't wori that's just a part of being in college.. esp. now that you're faced w/ a new kind of surrounding.. tha'll pass.. and also don't worry about that 3rd paragraph in ur post... u graduated in SJA! :) you'll make it!
By ***jane***, at
6/02/2007 10:28:00 PM
high-heeled chucks
a very cute hand bag