the love i want ; Ang sakit tanggapin na ung mga taong malapit sa buhay, pagkakaisahan ka.. Hindi mo aakalaing sa isang libro lang, iiba na ang pagtingin at pakikitungo ko sa kanila.. haay.. Nakakainis talaga!!
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the love i want ; Grr!! for 4 days.. Haven't gt enough sleep because I was studying for the long test in chem & mechanics wishing to ace those test.. Oh please let it be.. ='S If I'm not satisfied w/ my result.. I would cry.. huhuhu!! (laki ng sacripisyo ko noh..)

Our prof in psych did not attend our class.. aun, kwentuhan ulit kanina.. My blockmates gave me a bad comment.. ok so not the word comment.. "Di ka marunong makisama. Lagi ka na lang nagbabasa sa isang tabi. Nagpapaka-isolate ka ba?" Hmm.. For sure I got pissed off of what they said.. So what?! Its not that I dont' want to mingle with them.. I just wanted to be alone.. Haay..



"What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now?
Do you love me still or do you just mean well?"
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the love i want ; Having this one on one session with our psych prof was pretty nice (sa klase un ha.. everyday, isa-isa kaming kinakausap..) aww.. ang galing niya super!! Parang ngpakunsulta na rin ako.. hehehe.. Ui, di pa ako nbbaliw ha.. ;P I learned and understand so many things.. Haha!! Like my obsession.. err.. He didn’t gve me any advice w/ my problem even if I asked him what I’m supposed to do (A Psychologist must not give advice. They only guide you in a proper way of thinking/deciding. [so, ganun pala un..]) Haha!! Sana pala naging psych major na lang ako.. wee!! ;P One more thing, I like what he said to me.. hek3.. aww.. well, sa amin na lang un.. ;)
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the love i want ; As I walk away, I heard you screaming my name. I wanted to look back and see your face but I resist myself in doing so. For days I’ve tried to forget what my feelings are just to bring us back together. Cherishing the moments we’ll have.

Maybe you cannot understand what I’m trying to say. To make it short, I am afraid to lose you. When the time comes, I know you'll set me aside and prioritize the girl you fell in love w/..
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is it coincidental or simply providence that we are sufferin from the same kind of situation.. i sooo feel for you girl... still am hopin we'd get through this phase SOON

By  ***jane***, at 7/25/2007 12:03:00 AM  

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the love i want ; err.. sorry for not posting any entries.. Super busy.. haay.. I've been busy for a week because of the NSTW (National Science & Technology Week).. Busy in a way na taga-bantay ng exibit kahit na wala namang dapat bantayn.. hahaha!! Photographer, utos-utusan nung panahon na gmagawa kami ng costume para sa aming mascot (that's ok.. atleast nakakapunta akong sm.. ^.^), aral, aral, aral!! hahaha!! and still thinking kung ano ba ang gagawin kong proj. sa psych..(connect?!) hmm.. I have to make a scrapbook starting from my infant yrs. till present.. (conditions: I have to put some pictures w/ the people who made me a better/worst person, reasons.. umm.. ano pa ba?? can't remember ung iba pang conditions.. hek3..) I've been a bit lazy din this week.. Lagi na lang kasi ako nagala w/ my gen. sci friend & blockmates.. well, pinagsasamantala ko lang ang maluwag kong schedule.. hehehe.. Nahahawa na ata ako kay Irene.. tnatamad na rin ako pumasok this saturday.. hmm.. I'm still thinking if I'm going to school.. hmm.. bahala na lang sa mood ko.. hek3..

Nalulungkot ako.. Mawawalan na ata ako ng isang super close friend.. Sana wag na lang kasi siya umalis.. huhuhu!! Well, kahit na malayo na kami sa isa't isa.. I know, she's real to me.. aww.. Alabshue Diane!! ^.^ Dapat sa UPM na lang siya lumipat wag na sa UPD para malapit.. yehey!! meet ups sa rob.. ;) hek3.. (Diane, nagpaparinig ako.. hehehe..) yah, I can say she's everything.. ^^,) mwahhzz!!

Some of my readers knew that I'm a pet lover right?? well, if you don't.. now you know.. ANW.. almost a week na since my pet cat, krisca(yah I know.. strange name.. but I named her when I was in 4th yr. H.S..), she's so skinny & hasn't eaten anything since tuesday.. this afternoon I went home early just to bring her to the vet.. haay.. until now, di pa siya gumagaling sa bacterial infection niya sa stomach.. huhuhu!! Still praying for her recovery.. ='S
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the love i want ;

Hindi lihim sa aking tibok ng iyong damdamin
Alam kong matagal ka ng naghihintay

Wag kang magalala mahal naman kita
Darating din ang araw at tayo na

Alam ng ating mga puso na tayo'y para sa isa't isa
Alam ng ating mga puso at di na kailangan na sabihin pa
Ang mahalaga sana'y laging tapat ang pag-ibig mo
Nakahanda ang puso ko para sa'yo

Sila'y nagtataka ba't di ko inaamin
Na sa'yo ako ay may pagtingin

Wag kang mag-alala mahal naman kita
Darating din ang araw at tayo na

Alam ng ating mga puso na tayo'y para sa isa't isa
Alam ng ating mga puso at di kailangan na sabihin pa
Ang mahalaga sana'y laging tapat ang pag-ibig mo
Nakahanda ang puso ko para sa'yo

Maghintay ka lang malapit na,..

Alam ng ating mga puso na tayo'y para sa isa't isa
Alam ng ating mga puso at di na kailangan na sabihin pa
Ang mahalaga sana'y laging tapat ang pag-ibig mo
Nakahanda ang puso ko para sa'yo...

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wala lang.. I just like this song.. aww.. share ko lang.. ^.^ hehehe..
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the love i want ; I don't want to see myself hurt again because of him. I thought about it and I think its best if I told him everything.. umm.. not now.. maybe some other time.. Anywayz.. I know it would'nt be hard for him if he/or both of us decided to say our goodbyes.. Haay, sadness..
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the love i want ; pahabol lang..

I started thinking about this matchmaking thingy that my friends did.. hmm.. That's why I ask one of my blockmates who ofcourse knew this guy.. kblockmate niya kasi siya dati.. Umm.. not bad.. but ofcourse, I just wanted to know some of his background.. hahaha!! Hindi muna ako ppasok sa isang relationship not unless maging cum laude ako.. wee!! :P hek3.. (seriously!!)

Nasisiyahan nga ako sa kinuha kong course.. w/c is chemistry ofcourse.. ANW.. we did a little experiment and at that time sound trip!! iniwan kasi kami ng prof.. I heard this music that reminds me of him.. asar nga eh.. the funny thing is sunod-sunod pa talaga ung mga kanta na nagpapaalala niya sa akin.. tsk3.. inaasar ba ako?! hmm.. hek3.. :P

Napansin ko pala kahapon, I have this black spots in my left palm.. Di ko malaman kung san galing siya.. sometimes it itches and I can't get rid of it.. waha!! naghawak ako ng mga solid chemicals pero sabi naman sa amin ng prof safe daw un.. huhuhu!! ano kaya toh?!
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the love i want ; Another week of torture.. haay.. Well, ok lang rather than what happened to me last week.. Thank goodness!!

Hmm.. last week, I've been so depressed.. Parang may sarili ba naman akong mundo and naging bitter ako sa iba.. Wait a minute.. 2 of my friends.. ahem.. ahem.. knew what my problem was.. Kamusta naman sila, mga matchmakers.. hahaha!! well, they introduce me to this guy who is also their friend and blockmate.. I told them, I had a crush on him.. Joke lang un eh.. actually, I like his eyes.. un lang.. Ewan ko, sineryoso ata ng guy na un.. Nung weekened, todo text kaming dalawa.. Shet!! Pinapakilala na ng friend ko sa iba na bf ko na ung guy na un!! grr!! I know its a joke pero natutuwa pa nga daw 'tong guy.. hmph.. I don't like that ha..

ANW..

Huhu!! I don't want to think bad stuffs about him.. but why is he like that, acting bitter?? I want him to know but I'm afraid what his reactions would be.. ='S
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ka2lad ng parating mong cnsbi skin.. "kaya mo yan girl!' :)

By  ***jane***, at 7/09/2007 08:51:00 PM  

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the love i want ; Sunday morning, My aunt and I went to bicol (hindi na nakasama ung mom ko dahil wala daw mag-aasikaso sa mga kapatid ko.. err.. it's a good thing na 10:00 ang klase ko kaya pinayagan ako.. wehehe..) We came back just this morning around 9.. late nga lang ako sa 1st class ko but its ok.. I went to school looking tired but still manage to finish upto 8:30pm.. Biruin mo, magrereport pa ako for our psych class.. Eto pa.. I was so pissed off with my mechanics prof.. She said I was a "know-it-all".. Really?! Hmm.. How can I be a know-it-all if one of my blockmates cannot understand what she was discussing.. Duh!! she asked for my help, kaysa naman hindi ko siya tulungan..

Pers. Ed 3.. Haha!! All we ever did was to discuss our relationship to others.. Syempre.. mas gugustuhin nga naman nilang pag-usapan ang lovelife (as much as possible, I tried to avoid this discussion cause it still hurts me..).. well. Open Forum ang nangyari kanina.. BTW.. I was surprised with my blockmates.. We've known each other for 3 weeks or so?? Kung tratuhin namin ang isa't isa parang super close na ha.. hahah!! that's good.. ANW.. When it's my turn to open up, I cried.. I couldn't take it.. I still love this guy and I can't accept that he loves another.. What else can I do?? I love him so much.. I know we've talked about it, but how can I stop myself from loving him?! Trying to avoid?, make myself busy?, find another?! Everything that I do, reminds me of him.. Many had told me to forget him, but how?! Di ko nga kayang di kami magkita eh.. haay.. My prof. told me that I was obsessed with him.. Yes I am, like ate Jane.. She loved my friend so much for 3 or 4 or 5 years!? My goodness!! I salute u girl!! ^.^ Eto pa pala ang masakit.. may nalaman ako!! hmm.. I saw Meg inside our campus.. Nagtuturo pala ang tita niya sa amin.. ANW.. we chatted for 2 hrs?? during my break time.. Hmph.. bakit sinasabi ng taong un na kami na ni.......?? "basta alam ko masaya si jelai.", "tinatago pa nila, pero ang totoo ang alam ng iba ay sila na.." hmph.. really?! I was hurt.. not flattered.. wehe.. ok, I don't want to discuss this topic.. ;P

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'ang sakit ng ganun noh?'
funny how that sentence above can point to many items in your post...

don't mind your professor, she probably just has some sort of personality disorder.. you'll get through her, those things are all just a part of college...

do well in school okay.. i won't wish you luck, i don't believe in 'luck' kc e...

By  ***jane***, at 7/02/2007 11:33:00 PM  

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About me:
 ¼ Chinese (Father) ¼ Spanish (mother) & ½ (Filipino)
 Can sometimes be a pain in the ass
 Paranoid
 Kind
 Picky
 Loves pets (especially cats)
 listening to music, watching movies and eating are my passion
 guileless
 Creative w/ such things (haha!! Especially when it comes to gifts)
 hates being imitated
 friendly
 juvenile
 Can understand Korean, French and Spanish… partially..
 an athlete
 loves reading books and magazines
 Moody
 Nosy
 Loves to discover new things
 Loves taking pictures
 Designer
 Easily pleased
 IMPERFECT!!