the love i want ; I gave myself one week to reflect. Reflect everything that keeps on bothering me.

Academics finally its all over. Two weeks, struggling to aim not a passing mark but a mark closer to our ceiling grade.. Philippine History and Economics are my subjects were I am weak. So far, I am overwhelmed with my Philippine History grade. Still wishing for my Economics.. =’S

Friends.. yes, were now doing ok.. After the feud we had last month, I began to be a loner.. Not chatting with them for a month end up a lot of regrets for me. I can feel the gap, the awkwardness when I’m with them..

And to a friend.. the grudge that I’ve planted still lies inside me. Not about our past but our present. There are times that I tried to avoid having a conversation with him especially during the finals.. Why? Without him knowing, he is hurting me. “wag ka ng magsalita kung hindi mo alam.” These simple words does hurt my feelings. Like he was trying to tell me that I’m stupid, useless!! I may not be the “ultimate girl” that he’s looking for to love nor smart like he is, or even a best and I mean BEST friend like Irene.. I tried to be a friend, not perfect, but a friend, a best friend being herself.. The IMPERFECT one!! But look at me.. the stupid one, affected with those words, trying to do everything just to be perfect –for him to be pleased.. I quit one thing that I love –dancing.. I forced myself to have a part time job, being an encoder(typist) to my professor, applied myself this summer being a S.A.(student assistant) in admissions, and also entered myself in an online job, -writing articles w/ this unknown business I never heard of.. A friend of mine told me that it’s a scam they won’t pay me. So what? I have no regrets.. I am not looking for money, I’m doing this just to prove him something.

Haay.. I’m ok nah.. ^_^’ (just letting it all out of my system..)
pEoplE mAde mE cRy 0

mAkE mE crY

About me:
 ¼ Chinese (Father) ¼ Spanish (mother) & ½ (Filipino)
 Can sometimes be a pain in the ass
 Paranoid
 Kind
 Picky
 Loves pets (especially cats)
 listening to music, watching movies and eating are my passion
 guileless
 Creative w/ such things (haha!! Especially when it comes to gifts)
 hates being imitated
 friendly
 juvenile
 Can understand Korean, French and Spanish… partially..
 an athlete
 loves reading books and magazines
 Moody
 Nosy
 Loves to discover new things
 Loves taking pictures
 Designer
 Easily pleased
 IMPERFECT!!