the love i want ; “It’s not you, it’s me”

Heard those lines a thousand times.. I have been emotional for the past few days. I don’t know the reason but I keep on asking myself, “bakit nga ba kailangan may mgbf/gf?” I asked one of my friends opinion, “para magkaroon ng karapatan ung isang tao sa kanyang minamahal..” haha!! Ano raw?! So, what does that mean?! Anw.. for me diba, ppwede naman kayo magmahalan na walang commitment? I mean, yeah you trust that person and in that way you gave him/her a freedom to do whatever he/she wants. What about it?? How can I love a person if I couldn’t trust him? Hey, its not easy to give your trust dba?! I’ve know him long enough pero eto pa rin ang doubts.. There are times that he hurts me unconsciously. Ok, I can handle that pero minsan naiiyak na rin ako sa pagod. I want to give up and yet there’s a part of me that still wants to hold on. Again, its not that nagsasawa ako pero kahit gaano katagal ng iyong pagpapasensya napapagod ka rin eh.. =’S (and still, I don't want to quit on him..) Minsan iniisip ko rin, everything that I've done is it really worth giving?? Haay, I want to have a break from this feeling.. (hmm.. I should stop reading and watching mushy stuffs.. hek3.. :P)

I’m having a lot of fun w/ my friends’ company.. well, we call ourselves as MP4(mga payat 4) And with them, nakakalimutan ko ang problems ko.. aww.. ^.^ I love being busy, stressing over with my studies, reporting, grr!! this case study I’m supposed to be doing, and reading.. Actually, reading?? not much this time.. Haha!! I haven’t even finished reading The lovely bones, I think its been 2 weeks or so since I started reading that book.. I keep on going back the last chapters cause I forgot how the story goes.. wee!!

Pahabol.. I want to forgive, -to the people whom I hated and to those who treated me wrong.. hehe.. One step that I did was to greet her a Happy birthday.. (ang babaw pero I want to show her na wala na sa akin ang mga nangyari.. sus! 2nd yr pa un.. We’re still kids back then.. ^.^)

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About me:
 ¼ Chinese (Father) ¼ Spanish (mother) & ½ (Filipino)
 Can sometimes be a pain in the ass
 Paranoid
 Kind
 Picky
 Loves pets (especially cats)
 listening to music, watching movies and eating are my passion
 guileless
 Creative w/ such things (haha!! Especially when it comes to gifts)
 hates being imitated
 friendly
 juvenile
 Can understand Korean, French and Spanish… partially..
 an athlete
 loves reading books and magazines
 Moody
 Nosy
 Loves to discover new things
 Loves taking pictures
 Designer
 Easily pleased
 IMPERFECT!!